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Tuesday, 14 April 2009

Childhood: What if!!!! Would you go back and change anything in your life?

I don’t know if it is just me, but the older I get the more I think about my childhood. It really was the best time of my life. I had no responsibility what so ever. I went to school, came home, played with my friends and family, and at one time or another I hated my parents but it never lasted long. I didn’t have to work (and by work I mean really work, like earn money to live!!) well maybe doing something around the house or cleaning my room. When I look back on it, I didn’t have to do much at all.

I found myself today thinking back to when I was a child if there is anything I would change. I’m sure the answer for most of us would be YES!! Don’t get me wrong I had a great childhood. I didn’t have a lot of friends, but the a few I did have I still talk to now thanks to face book and other networking sites on the web. But the thing I don’t get is when you’re back in school there are a few people that would never talk to you, and now a days it like they’re your best friend. It’s like fuck, you didn’t speak to me when I was at school so why are you doing it now!!!

And another thing is only about 6 members of my family know that I am HIV positive too - my Mother, Father, Auntie Carmen, Auntie Hooky, Fiona and Sam. Well it will be the talk of the family now because I have attached my blog to my face book, nothing like causing a bit of shit!! And I have a few friends that I told as well, Peter, and Estea. I guess I would have told more but it’s something you can’t say in an email, can you. I don’t think I would have known what to say it to be honest with you. I’m open about it, but it just isn’t spoken of if you know what I mean. Maybe they’re ashamed that I am HIV positive. I don’t really care myself. Shit happens. My friends in the UK all know. I’m very open about it with them. It is one of the first things I say if I am getting to know someone. My Auntie is proud of me when it comes to my HIV, don’t really know why.

Anyway I’m getting off track again. Crap. Where was I, childhood that’s right? I have thought of 10 things I would go back and tell myself when I was say I don’t know 13/14 years old. And here they are:

1. You’re going to be offered a job very soon in your life. Don’t take it. There is more to life.
2. Go to University, you will be very thankful that you did.
3. Just come out already everyone knows!!! Really everyone has known since you where 5!
4. Don’t come out to Samantha first. You don’t get the answer you really want.
5. You’re going to meet a guy, he is going to be the one, don’t fuck it up!!!
6. If you get the offer to go to the UK, Take it!!! Before you come over just do it.
7. Get into Art more. You do like it!!! No matter what anyone has to say about the matter.
8. Don’t ever date a girl!! At all. Ever. Never! I can’t stress this to you!!!
9. I really can’t stress number 8. Don’t ever date any girls. Trust me it will not end nice.!!!
10. Spend more time with your family. It’s fucking big enough.

So that’s it, 10 things I would go back and tell myself if I could. What are yours? Put them in the comments. I didn’t think it would help, but it really does just by writing them down. I guess a part of me also wants to go back and just give myself a good slap around the face, because it would be fun. lol

I’m going to give vblogs a go sooner or later. So watch for them. It will be funny because I just fucking hate talking into a camera because I have to edit it, and I really don’t like the way my voice sounds.

I really wish I had a really good coming out story. My coming out wasn't that flash but I will sure it one day soon. It's okay. Untill I spoke to Samantha about it and she crushed my bubble!!!

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