Reflection: The last year of my life!

I have been finding myself of late reflecting on the past year. It’s coming up to 12 months from when I was diagnosed as being HIV positive. The last year has been anything but smooth I can say. I was very very sick this time last year. I was in Hospital for 3 weeks, about to move, and in general just felt like shit.

I was lucky my auntie was over from Australia, because that helped me a lot. It was bad news, don’t get me wrong. It didn’t tear my life apart as much as I thought it would. I went on a bit of a down wood turn around August, but that is only because I think that is when I may of become infected years ago (word of warning Late August to early September isn’t a good time for me!!).

I have been thinking about the upcoming date and wondering if I would be at the same place as I am now if things were different? I must admit I owe so much to my friends; Pete, Boo, Nigel, Colin and Ste who have been lifesavers although I don’t really speck to Boo much anymore. But I did let him know that I was very thankfully for the time we spend together, and everyone else I have told. And there is Nana who would come over every night after she finished work to make sure I was okay. I think she use to worry because I was living myself at the time. And a few other friends I use to talk to but I have grown apart or they have gone back home, or many other different reasons.

I truly do think that I wouldn’t be at the place I am now in my life if it wasn’t for my friends and my Aunt. And I do think that it is all I really need. Fuck I still haven’t had “The Phone Call” from my Mother and Father about being HIV+, although being it’s coming up to a year I really don’t think it is going to happen. But I’m not bothered as it just puts thing more clearly in my mine. Or maybe they can’t deal with it. It’s funny, it’s not their battle or problem to deal with its mine. And I’m doing fine with it. The score is: me 5, HIV 2 lol. I’m still ahead and fighting strong.

But this coming year is going to be even better. I have the Crusaid – Walk for life, and a bit of work in the community with different HIV Charities and Local Groups and that will be fun. I gave a helping hand at the Oxford and Cambridge boat race late last month. So that was cool. But you know what the best thing is, I’m alive and I am healthy, that is the main thing and everything else will just fall in to place. J Who knows who I will meet this year, friends come and go but true friends stay a live time.